I feel like I'm dreaming and it's NOT a nightmare! This was a long journey, not only for myself but for my family and YOU!
Praise you Lord Jesus Christ!
I've been feeling so good these last few months and so relieved to hear the results of this scan that I had 7 weeks ago (if I wasn't so head strong, I would have found out then and really enjoyed my holidays but this just makes it like another great Christmas present).
Looking back = watching some TV shows and hearing 'stuff' about cancer kind of gave me a clue that I was okay.....I heard, if you get up to go to the bathroom between the hour of 2 to 3 AM that you have problems with your liver; if you have a coating on your tongue...which I HAD both! I also had this 'growth' (kind of pimple like) on my eyelid and never knew what it was or how to treat it. I did notice with the chemo that it had gone away. I also had an infection in my mouth (where I had a root canal done years ago) which I let go for at least a year (which I feel was the beginning of my cancer)......these were some of the symptoms I noticed on myself....could it be? I don't have any of them now....
My last chemo treatments was in late August. I only went 2 times instead of 3 due to the symptoms being so horrid. Then in September I went to Sloan to meet with the oncologist that does the liver pump (and if you read my blog = she was such a terrible person!) and with her attitude I/we decided to hold off. I was expecting to go to my niece's wedding in S.C. in late October (so I didn't want to start chemo again before that, knowing how terrible I'd feel), then the hurricane came and devastated this area - more so NYC....IF I had gone for the PUMP, I would have had the hardest time getting to the city. God is right there!!!! HE knew that this was happening! Then I finally made an appointment with Dr. May in November. I needed my port flushed and she requested that I go for a scan to see what was going on. Putting it off until the week after Thanksgiving I finally went - December 5th. I usually call to ask for a copy of the scan which Dr. May is always accommodating me and doing so...but feeling so good and knowing the holidays were upon us, I decided to wait and if I'd get a call - I wasn't even going to answer....I just didn't want to know....I wanted to enjoy my Christmas holidays with my family. Finally, knowing that my port needed to be flushed again, I hesitantly called to make the appointment and to find out the results of the scan. I called a few weeks ago and they were so busy I had to wait (10 weeks) until yesterday. --so many things go through your (my) mind....IF I did do the pump = then they would have said the same thing - disease free....but look what I would have had to go through....another 'full' cut on my liver PLUS another incision for the pump....AND having to go back and forth to NYC every other week PLUS to have to put up with that arrogant doctor! God does work in mysterious ways.....
My next appointment to see Dr. May will be in three (3) months. I will have to go back to have my port flushed every 6 to 8 weeks.
My journey has come to a 'stop sign' and hopefully with God's grace and prayers my miracle will continue until I am definitely in total remission (not sure how long that is - with breast cancer it's five (5) years; maybe the same with any type of cancer).
Diagnosed with Stage IV (4) Colon Cancer in October/November 2009 and began chemo in January 2010; on and off, surgery, on and off, CT scans, MRI scans, PET scans, and some horrid symptoms, not all bad, not all good either....I AM A SURVIVOR!
Laughter and staying positive is the best medicine. Here it is, easy for me to say at this point in my life. Thee were times that I just wanted to 'stop' all of it....but with YOU, and my family, I continued on.....
Not sure how often I will blog....maybe once a month.....don't be a stranger...I'm on line with my emails and on facebook.
I can never express the 'thankful, joyous feeling' knowing that you all have walked me through this journey with the help of God, Jesus, Blessed Mother, all the Saints.....etc.....
Love to you all - always stay positive and BELIEVE IN MIRACLES! I'm living proof!
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